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RECENT UPDATE
so the date is 21 October 2009. the things, what you can read below happened 3 weeks ago now. and since then my life has totally changed. i feel happy, i "feel like" being alive or idk...but things just have been fixed. and thats good.
my only problem is that i know that the end of this great thing is coming and im afraid of the consequences. im afraid that i will have suffer or somethin'..like i did before. but everythign is jsut sooooo cool guys....i am not in love. or i 'd say i shouldnt be in love. im cheerful because i know that i see Him, and aww you know. the interesting thing is that our relationship is not about feelings..or not form both side...there is no absence in anything, but i guess we are " together" only for "enjoyment". which is actually AWESOME but i need somehting more. thats what im pretty sure about. i know i'll loose him if i only say a word...i know that a normal person woudl laugh at my "problem", but hell yeah...its serious. so i guess till its good, till im happy in it, i will not change.

hey guys, now im gonna talk abouta thign that has just happened to me 5 minutes ago.:D but lets start in the beginning. my ex boyfriend called me yesterday evening to tell em that he still loves me and he has recently been thinking of me a lot. When we broke up in March he told me to wait 2 years and after that everythign's gonna be fine and he just waits until i turn 18 and gonna be offically a grown-up. ( he is 21, im 16.) so he called me I was like:OHH MY GOSH. but anways he jsut made me happy and my whole body was shaking when we were talking. and he told me that he didnt forget anything and want me to be his wife one day. and he told me that he called me let me know that half a year has already gone...so only 1,5 yrs left. and he also said that he is coming on Monday ( we talked on Thursday). and today ( today is Friday) he jsut came up to my house he drove a 2, 5 hours long way to my town in secret, to tell me the same he said through the phone. adn he hugged me and he kissed me..and everything was like last autumn-winter. i thought i had already got over him. but after today i realized that i still acnt say "no" when he kisses me....and now, i cant decide whether i like this or not.

Hey guys, I'm just letting you know that I DO NOT want you to send me poems, "i love you" & "i miss you" letters. Thank you.

PS: i wont like you more if you send me these. you just make yourself boring/ annoying/ BLOCKED.


Have a nice day =]

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THE MOST WONDERFUL WEEK in my life

Ok, now really this was the best. no question about it.i loved every minute of it. no, i loved every second of it. incredibly awesome. i feel like i cant write as the excitement is just running over my body in every second. every word im writin down just ends up as a memory of these 8 days and the worst is that i dont know how i will survive this school years withtou this joy. i will always remember, I know. but as time goes on i will forget littel details..i already forgot little details..and i feel really sorry about it now. somehow i have to get them back or i will be crazy. thoo many thigns happened to remember all of them. i cant get over the time i spent there. I loved the place, the people, the programs, the sea..jsut everything. Googlelize "Basko Polje" i was there. and its even beautiful when youre there. however it could have been in the middle of the desert, i would not feel worse than im feeling now. these experience are mine now and no one can take them away. NO ONE. no one will ever know how it was without participating in it. thanks for European Union! becaue the EU paid almost everything. I wont write here too many details bc they're mostly quite personal...but if you know me and yoyu're interested, write me, i can tell you about it. Thanks the teams from Bosnia, Slovakia, Czech Republic and of course Hungary. thank for multicultural nights every day, boat trips to Makarska and Brac. thanks for Gyuri and Matus for the awesome guitar playings and the times when I could sing along. thanks for LángosGuy (zanyn) who ate everything we cooked.:D lol. so thanks for him, because we had some nice and "deep" talk and i got to know him better.:) thanks for Lukas, who made a question about the length of my legs in a questionairre abotu the EU. haha. everyone was laughing. and thanks for him saying my english is amazing after 2 years. Thanks for Martin1, Martin2 and Martin3. Martin1, although you have girlfriend, you were always nice to me, and thanks for the sea shells from Brac. MArtin2, you were " my son" when you got drunk on the "international fanta project with vodka" night.:D and im letting you know that i am not mad at you even if you tried to kiss me.:D thanks for Martin3, who always tried to talk to me in Hungarian even if he doesnt speak Hungarian, only a few words. he always made me smile when he made faces when I was with some other guys in the disco at night.:D thanks for the Hungarian team, even if the leader (ben) thought I am too young to do anyhting alone and he was following me everywhere i went, ruining my "night programs:P". Thanks for Adamski who is the funniest and learned architecture student ive ever met. thanks for Eva who didnt speak english at all. however, she was the head of the programme:D thanks for Gabyka and Marek, who are a really nice couple and were always smiling at me and offered me some candy when I was starving.:D thanks for Clara,, who is such a nice girl! she was really pretty every day and smiling alwaysy at me and trying to help every way she could have helped. and thanks for her boyfriend, Honza who is really handsome and they looked great together. thankss for Honza's brother, Danek, who slept outside on the fanta night with the companies of Gyuri, Emil and me. he was my 2nd son. talk about him later.:D thanks for Misa who stopped winking at me with a frightening face when he realized i am only 16. thanks for Milos, who made all the hungarians laugh everytime he appeared. thanks for Bosko, who taught us some reallyy "nice" bosnian swearing. thanks for Nora, who was such a nice girl with a great taste of humour. thanks for the 2 old ladies who loved our meals on the Hungarian national evening. thanks for Marenka, who was always nice to me, and i wish her happy years with Matus, because they're getting married in a month! thanks for my "family" lol. Thanks for my three sons, who i took care when they were drunk, namely: Gyuri, Danek, and Martin2. We took awesome family photos and made family jumps to the Adriatic sea and danced a family dance in the disco. and finally...the most important parts..thanks for Emil. Emil, I love you.:D really:D im serious. he wasth e one who made himself such a loving person that i couldnt believe my eyes. I was shocked by his perfect english at the age of 20, and i assure everybody that you will hear about him in the future. he will be a "big" man in the history. [all the best Emil, I love you.] thanks for Adamir...I wont say detailt aboour my relationship with him..but thanks for the 2nd and 3rd camp night Ada. I'm really sorry that he lives so far away..and it was no fair that he had to leave the camp on the 4th day. but it was worth being with you, anyway! [ I love you Adamir, too.:) ] thanks for Danek, who was my 2nd son and the time we spent together at the last two night. one day a girl will be reallyy happyy to have you as her husband, im sure. [ I love you, Danek, too. ] thanks for the song 'Aspirin' by Seka Aleksic..I guess she is the singer, if im wrong, sorry. the song is from 2007 and i didnt know it before i went to Basko Polje. but there, MArtin3 showed us, and all of the hungarians loved it. we learned the lyrics ( thanks emil that you wrote it down to me:] ) and it become virtually the "anthem of the camp" :D lol. and thanks for all the foreigners as they sais: mpHÁROM.:D

Loved everything, everybody, every second.

I'm loving my life. =]

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A Wonderful WEEK
Hey guys. Now I would like to share with you the story of July 12-18. So let's see what I have to tell you. I went to this camp wich is a Christian camp by the way for the second time. I was really excited about it. Last year it was soo cool that I thought it was not going to be so goo and I might have felt disappointed. But I was wrong. If I thought last year was awesome then I can't find the words for this year's camp. I could have never ever imagined a better camp than this and I can't say enough thank you for all those who were there and helped me in my English. ( It's an English camp where the teacher are from the USA, but the spirit of the camp is Christian). My English improved a lot I think ( i mean my oral skills). I met so many interesintg and exciting new poeple, I made so many friends from the US and from Hungary, too. I am thankful for the Lord that I could took part in this awesome camp. =)

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It's me again. Look guys..I'm here to practise and not to find the Big Love of my Life. Understood? Thanks. In the beginning I said okay no problem. But now its pretty annoying that every time I sign in I have at least 10 letter in my box and 6 is about "You are sooop retty. I want to meet you." or "I'm looking or a girl like you...you are perfect you speak English and you're nice
" . I'm fed up wit that. TOTALLY. I like you all , but you gotta understand this is not a webpage where you should find LOVE. So from now...no matter who I got a message about my apperance from, my answer will be a DELETE or pushing BLOCK THIs USUR button.

By the way I'm okay and I didn't go crazy.
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Hey guys. So let's talk about music things.
I love music and I do believe life is unacceptable without some music. But! I need only good music with cool lyrics, not just that "dummm-dumm" music. Hope you understand what I'm talking about.
I love singing as you can read it below, and when I had a hard period ( not so long time ago) I tried to write a song. I wouldnt say it is wonderful, but very meaningful and I worked with it a lot. I will probably never sing it before audition btu when I feel bad it wil be always in my head and will make me a bit happier. At least I hope so.
When you listen to some kind of music i think you feel something in your souls. The songs remind you something nice or even bad..but you feel something. That's why I feel like I wanna cry sometimes....or wanna dance in the city centre, and I dont care how many people will laugh at me or look me like I would be an idiot ( or drunk:D). When I listen to e.g. "Seasons in the sun" it makes me it sad because its about farewell, death and love. As soon as I hear "I'm walking on sunshine" I forget my problems and start to sing as loud as I can. You ask why? And I answer: The power of the music. :)

I never thought a teen popstar who is the clidrens' favourite singer or celebrity can touch sould with those meaningless and "fake" songs. But when listened to Goodbye by MIley Cyrus and felt like it's written about me I realized that anybody (with good singing skill) can touch a heart if the lyrics emotional (Sad or happy, both way) and it sounds good. So: listen to music as much as you can! Sing in the city, at home, with friends, in the mountains, in the car. It makes you feel better. Trust me.:)
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I am bored. Soooo I should do what I usually do this time. But unfortunately at the moment its too late to call my friends on the phone, i am sure they would think I am an idiot because of talking to them this time. So I'll write some random things. But why?:O:P

I am probably a bad dream for guys.:D Seriously, I could be really cute and kind and similars. But if they do somethign bad..then I behave like a dragon. Sorry:S..:D

Eating in the middle of the night is fun. Who cares about weight?:D okayokay..I am lucky because I never get fat (Thank God) but everybody should try it! Have your friends over and do an eating party!They'll love it:)promise;)

Actually I have only one body piercing, a belly ring, and I wouldnt like more because I think its enough and i dont want to take my body down with holes and uuuhh.you know:) I think that one in my belly is cool ( Am I too vain?:D)guys also love it, and I am proud to have one:)

Inside I am a strange person I think. I use to think about things what other people never think about.

I tend to dream about my Prince Charming who will come for me on a White Horse one day. I dod believe in Him. He has to be alive...and find me one day..right?:D

Why can't I travel all my life around a world? Do you think its impossible? If I could, I would never stop , max for a second to say hello:)

I am totally fed up with men who think they are way cool but they are just a mess with good body and handsome face. But inside..they are poor..and know nothin' about girls' emotions. THey should respect women much more!

I have an aweosme sister who cant get bored with singing karaoke songs. I am sure one day I will cut the wires in the middle of the night. Only because of surviving.:D:D

I like modelling. Its really fun and you can visit places where you would never go at all, jsut because of the shoot which is placed there.You can meet lots of interesting people.

hmm..Thats all now .TO be continued?:D MAybe. Another boring night.:)


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The girl loved Him from the bottom of her heart.
THe boy said that He also loves the girl.
The girl was right. The boy lied.

He left Her crying on the floor like nothing happened. So what?
He will SUFFER. One day He will APOLOGIZE standing on His knees.

And that day the girl will know she WON.
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1) If you talk to me on a bad day of mine, don't expect I am so cheerful and happy as almsot always.

2) I love listening when somebody plays on guitat. And of course if he asks me to sing along!:D

3) Singing is my life. Alone, with classmates or friends, in a group, at the bar. You know, wherever and whenever.

4) I like people looking nice. Probably in this case I am more friendlier..I don't know why.

5) Maybe I look a shopping-spree girl, who knows only how to pick up some guys, spend all of the money on clothes and jewellery, goes to party all time. This is not true. (Just a little bit:P)

6) I do love sports. Okay, okay.maybe I prefer to watch them. But I like doing them as well! Basketball? Tennis? Call me! I'll be there:P:D

7) Formula1. I adore it. ( This is all, there is no wors for it. Loooooove it:D)

8) I have a special blackboard full of earrings and necklaces and piercings. I love jewellery! A lot of people may think body piercing is bad. If you tell me why, I appreciate it!

8) My friends arereally cool. MAybe strange, but I have mroe guy friends than girls. I like hanging out with them.

9) If you call me on my cell phone between 10 p.m and 6 a.m. (next day) , believe me, you will mind. Night is for sleeping, leave me alone.

10) I love if you text me at 7:55 and you want to invite me to somewhere. Oh and you want me to be there at 8:00. Funny..:P

11) Italian music, food is for me. Totally. You can't find a girl in the Universe who loves pasta as much as me! Pizza? Where? hmm....adooore it =)

12) There is not any morning without some chocolate.

13) I hate col weather in summer, and warm weather in winter.

13 ) If you think you know me, you are wrong.

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