Hi Adelus. I wrote, then had this sonnet published when I was in your situation. It worked for me, now I'm giving my permission to you & only you to use it.
If I loved you & only you
But my thoughts could not reveal,
And you were false & I were true
Our love would it be real?
If kingdoms rich & oceans vast,
One day should not be there
Your roving eyes, would they be cast
At others if they be fair?
But your cruel heart may never see,
My love for you inside of me......