Phobia

Everybody has something that terrified them. Fears and phobias.
My phobia is to cross a road. Here there is too much traffic and too many cars. I am terrified to be hit by a car. I never start to cross a road if I see a big wagon far away. I am afraid to become an invalid. It is my second fear. I prefer death, rather than be disabled.
My phobia is death of a loved one. I know it looks like I am an egoist, but I don't want to loose my close persons, my family. I take close to my heart the pain of other people and animals.
Also, I am terrified of an electric shock. I'm not friends with appliances. Once I tried to fix up the light and I was shocked. The hit wasn't strong, but since then I am terrified when I pull something out from a socket.