work in front of me

The work in front of me

I am killing time now.
To speak honestly and precisely Honestly speaking, I am not wanting don't want to see the work right now.
It's because I would be scared if I saw and figured how much work there is.
In spite of this, I should go get back to work because I am not letting going to let the work get bigger pile up more and become a monster.

:D

Good job! 

work in front of me

I am killing time now.
To speak honestly and precisely, I am not wanting don't want to see the work right now.
It's because I know I would be scared if I saw and figured how much work there really is.
In spite of this, I should go back to work because I shall not allow the work get any bigger and become a monster.

:D

A lot of the things I corrected were simply to make it sound more fluent. It's really good though! Good luck in the future!