It is from my book I told her since the first time i met her about my habit. I gave her explanations , she doesn't mind it. There is nothing I can say for you right now because i keep my promise, I won't say anything to you if I can't move on from this habit. I am risking my friendship with these stupid habits. I realized those people outside there more fun than I stay at my room and do nothing. I asked my friend , what is he struggling for? I think he is not sure about what he is struggling for right now. One by one they were leaving me, I knew this thing will happen one day. I do everything to make us happy but now what else? nothing Step by step they are move on but how about me? I am very easy to tempted with my habit, my mind always said " I'll find the way ". What I know is words are words, i have to know how to face my habit. All of things on this Entry are fictitious, take it easy guys hahahaha. Please correct my entry