Vent emotions I know what I feeling now but I dont know how to discribe it? Sould i say im so upset? I dont wanna talk with my parents, I cant handle that the attention for the children from chinese

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Vent emotions I know what I feeling now but I dont know how to discribe it? Sould i say im so upset? I dont wanna talk with my parents, I cant handle that the attention for the children from chinese parents. For them , maybe for the most of chinese parents this attention means do everything as them will. But Im not a robot, Im a human someone has owe feelings own emotions. I told them I dont wanna get married too early , I want to travel around world. Guess what they say? YOU ARE WORRY! The life rules is get married and have kids! Who made these rules?When i work in a small company they said YOU ARE WORRY! Maybe you should choose a secure job. My job is not? I felt the inner restraint become stronger everyday when i live in china, every elders look at me like a freak. And then I found another way run away, Ill go another country to work. But Guess what they say? My mom is crying. Yes, she did. She worried about my life cuz Ill choose a WORRY way! I think most of chinese children could understand the elders feeling, and I also do. But another part of my mind want yelling! what the hell is! Did i insane? No. Im not and you guys did! I have no idea where i could vent. Thats all. And Ill live my life use my rules.

Nov 21, 2014 9:02 AM

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(Scarlett, I took many liberties revising your notebook entry. If you didn't agree with what I've written, make some changes and we can work on it some more.)

I just don't know how to describe how I'm feeling. I'm so upset. I don't want to talk to my parents right now. I feel like my parents are suffocating me with all their attention. Like most Chinese parents, they want to do everything for me. (I'm not really sure what you meant by this sentence, so I took a stab at it.) I'm not a robot; I'm a human being with my own feelings and emotions. I told them that I don't want to get get married while I'm so young. I want to travel around the world first. Guess what they said? "Aren't your worried? The purpose of life is to get married and have kids!" Who made these rules? When I was working in a small company they said, "Aren't you worried? You need to choose a more secure job." My job isn't secure? I feel the tension getting stronger in me every day I live in China. All my elders look at me like I'm a freak.

Then I found another way to escape. I told them that I found a job in another country. But guess what they said? My mom started crying and said that she worries about my life because I've chosen a risky path. I think most Chinese children understand their elder's feelings. I do, but another part om me wants to yell, "What the hell. Am I insane? No, I'm not, but you guys are."

I had no idea where I could vent. That's all. I just want to live my life using my rules.

February 12, 2015