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It's raining again. People think too much on rainy days. There is a Chinese movie, I can't remember the name now, that says that if you have a secret which you want to tell but you're afraid to, you can speak into the hole in a tree. When you're done, you seal the hole with something, then your secret will be safe forever, and you will feel relief.
I have a secret but I don't want to tell anyone. I'm not frightened or ashamed or anything, I just want to keep it deep in my heart. This is the thing I am supposed to bear, I think. No one can help me and I don't want help.
Weakness is the last thing I would recommend. If someone feels sorry for you you might think that would make you a little bit happier  but no, it would make you feel worse. No one can say he is the poorest person in the world, with so much suffering around. Life is the kind of thing that you can't take seriously, but when you don't, it seems like it will be out of control.

Hi! I've marked my changes with highlighting. Another English person might write it differently but I've done my best to get across the meaning I think you intended. I don't think I've done very well with the last sentence because I wasn't quite sure what you meant.

Hope this helps!

Gina