My confusion (ambivalence 我具有矛盾情感的)

Now I am a junior student, and my majoring in accounting. Due to the results fact that I want to work at a foreign company since after I am graduated, so now I really want to improve my oral spoken English more than ever now. However, due to time constraints, I will must occupy all my time to do the work focusing on courses releated to my major. That's why I feel confusued (ambivalent) now.

Susie:

You don't really feel confusion because you have decided on the course of actions to take, (focus on your studies relating to your major.) Even though you have taken action, you still have these other types of feelings related to your desire to improve your English. Maybe you are asking yourself, "Can I really do both at the same time?"

My confusion

Now I am a junior student, and my mojor major is accounting. Due to the results that Since I graduated i want to work at a foreign company since i am graduated, so now i really want to improve my oral english. However, i will occupy spend my time to doing the work releated to my major. That's why i feel confusued now.

My confusion

Now i am a junior student, and my mojor major is accounting. Due to the results that since i am graduated,  I want to work at a foreign company since i am graduated. So now i really want to improve my oral english. However, i will occupy my time to do doing the work releated to my major. That's why i feel confusued now.