Why do I hate everybody

I have know this for a long time that I hate all the people around me , and they never really like me either. Naturally there are people who convince themselves that every person is loveable and one should always be nice, but I just don’t buy it.

This is about figuring out why do I hate everybody around me.So today,me and my “friends” , we went to the amusement park ( it’s like adult verson of Disneyland).There’s Liz , whose parents work in another country. Mindy , not bad at math ,sucks at every thing else. Ross , overweight，overmature guy , kind of a nagger. Martty , tall and thin,never has a clue.And,there is a stranger I just met.
At first , we all seemed to have fun,but then more and more clearly,the other two girls were totally ignoring me, they go here and there , holding hands,at first I tried to keep it up,but then I felt like I was just making a fool of myself. Honestly I don’t know what I did wrong.When we three were talking everything felt normal,we laughed together, seemed so intimate.But as soon as we were moving , Liz even ran away from me to Mindy.I mean , it’s like seconds ago, me and Liz,BFF,and boom,I am nothing.
The most probable reason Liz did that , I guessed, is because she thinks I like or should hang with the boys. It is true that I have a better relationship with them than she does, but, I never
act like I would rather hang around with them more than her ! Besides , why can’t we just walk together, unless she doesn’t like them at all ,which she should have just told me.
A more simple reason, she never liked me.I am just convenient company so she doesn’t have to be alone. Liz is the kind of girl who never speaks ill of anybody , but never speaks well of anybody either. Good to fit in anywhere, but never to have a relationship more than holding hands walk around together. Occasionally I try to find out what she really thinks deep in her mind, but I always failed.So either she’s really good at relationships, or she just never thinks too much like me. So sometimes I like to call her vacancy girl.
to be continued

Good job--but that sucks that she makes you feel that way. I've been in situations like that. Not pleasant!

Why do I hate everybody

I have know this for a long time that I hate all the people around me , and they never really like me either.Naturally their are people who convince themselves that every person is loveable and one should always be nice, but I just don’t buy it.
This is about figuring out why I hate everybody around me.So today,me and my “friends” , we went to the amusement park ( it’s like adult verson of Disneyland).There’s Liz ,whose parents are working in another country. Mindy , not bad at math ,sucks at every thing else. Ross , overweight，overmature guy , kind of a nagger. Martty , tall and thin,never has a clue.And,there is a stranger I just met.
At first , we all seemed to have fun,but then more and more clearly,the other two girls were totally ignoring me, they go here and there , holding hands,at first I tried to keep  up,but then I felt like I was just making a fool of my self. Honestly I don’t know what I did wrong.When we three were talking everything felt normal,we laughed together, seemed so intimate.But as soon as we were moving , Liz even ran away from me to Mindy.I mean , It’s like seconds ago, me and Liz,BFF,and boom,I am nothing.
The most probable reason Liz did that , I guess, is because she thinks I like or should hang with the boys. It is true that I have a better relationship with them than she does, but, I never
act like I would rather hang around with them more than her . Besides , why can’t we just walk together, unless she dosen’t like them at all ,which she should have just told me.
More simple reason, she never liked me.I am just a convenient company so she doesn’t have to be alone. Liz is the kind of girl who never speak ill of anybody , but never speaks well of anybody either. Good to fit in anywhere, but never to have a relationship more than holding hands walk around together. Occasionally I trie to find out what she really thinks deep in her mind, but I always faile. Either she’s really good at relationships, or she just never think too much like me. So sometimes I like to call her vacancy girl.
to be continued