(I am) Extremly stressed out
I want to go to graduate school for (i)nterpretation.
I have to admit my English is not good enough to do so.
Still, I was quite excited to have (an ambitious goal for) my 30s. (N)ow I am actually start doing someting about it, and working on it. Every single day and every step I take is very stressful(,) (I) realize how small and little (I) know about (the language). I felt pretty happy learning English before I set this goal though. Do I have to back down and study English as a hobby? Or do I have to push myself through (it, even if it's hard).
I really want to do something meaningful in my life. But everyday I am appalled by how vulnerable I am to stress. Even now I am in my bed from a bad cold because I am very stressed out from a writing class I am taking. I end(ed) up not being able to hand (in) the research paper that I have been stressed out from anyway. My teacher must have thought that I am just a slacker. Bummer. :(