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"grapplings with misplace worth and identity"

To grapple means to struggle. It can be used in a physical sense - "the two men grappled (wrestled) with each other", but in this case it it talking about an emotional struggle.

So I think the sentence is talking about her struggle with her feelings about the kind of person she is, her self-worth. Many of us have these kinds of struggles at some time in our lives: we worry about our abilities and our behavior and we are fearful that we are not as good as other people.

thanks i didn't know that grapple has two different meaning
one is grapple with somebody its clear = wrestle
but another meaning was new for me = trying to understand something difficult
The government has to grapple with the problems of unemployment.

i don't know