Yes , you are very shy Angela:)
Try to overcome this by mingling with people and developing your self confidence.
There is nothing wrong with not being able to speak fluently and not finding the right words,after all you are learning a language.Just make mistakes and so you learn.
On the other hand you can do some exercises and practices to improve your spoken English and be more confident about expressing yourself verbally.
Here are also some tips for you to practice and improve your spoken (oral)English.
Observe the mouth movements of those who speak English well and try to imitate them.
When you are watching television, observe the mouth movements of the speakers. Repeat what they are saying, while imitating the intonation and rhythm of their speech.
* Until you learn the correct intonation and rhythm of English, slow your speech down.
If you speak too quickly, and with the wrong intonation and rhythm, native speakers will have a hard time understanding you.
Don't worry about your listener getting impatient with your slow speech -- it is more important that everything you say be understood.
* Listen to the 'music' of English.
Do not use the 'music' of your native language when you speak English. Each language has its own way of 'singing'.
* Use the dictionary.
Try and familiarize yourself with the phonetic symbols of your dictionary. Look up the correct pronunciation of words that are hard for you to say.
