Am I getting way ahead of myself? I feel like a juggler, really. And mind you, I don't literally juggle, or should I say, I don't know how to do it. People say it's just one of those skills where practice makes perfect. Alright. I'll pass. What I meant by juggling was the jobs I'm having at the moment: A part time 4 days per week, 5 hours each session plus 2 boring hours commuting, a freelance at home which glues me to the laptop screen, feeling like the Hunchback of Notre Dame. And not to mention a toddler who is unable to stay quiet for 5 minutes. I am convinced that she can surely break the world record for the sheer number of times she called me. "Mommy mommy mommy mommy mommy..." She can go on and on until she gets a reply or two. It's easier to get a job in Japan than to fall in love. I can assure you that. It was too easy for me, being from a total housewife to a part-timer and freelancer in about 4 months since arrival with dependent visa. At first it was great and all... but slowly and surely, I can feel it taking its torn on my health, both physically and mentally. Don't get me wrong, I haven't been seriously sick since the move, and the environment here is great. However, deep down inside I yearn for the freedom, the danger that was once so familiar and normal that I took it for granted. And the connection, yes! That's it... Missing friends and family like crazy... You can never understand the real value of something until it's gone... But I hope I can see them again soon. I've been slacking from work quite enough... time to head back now. Self, I promise that I'll treat you much nicer when this project is done, so bear with me, will you? All work and no play, really makes me a dull woman.