Elio probed Oliver carefully. Oliver asked why he told this to him. Elio said he thought Oliver should know. Oliver questioned that. Then Elio said " I want you to know." He said that thrice. More and more lightly. But Oliver changed the subject. He told Elio they shouldn't talk about this.
And then, they rode away together.
I was so moved by this scene. I hope that I can act as Elio. To face my true feeling frankly, and do not fear of being refused or despied. And I think if I want to do this, I should acknowledge myself rightly at first. Do not look myself down nor protect myself to much. Just treat myself as one creature in this world and any frustration is common.
Even if I'm turned down, I should face it naturally. There's nothing ashamed. Each person has his or her in the world, and if I can find my place and place myself well, I will get the feeling of security, and have the courage to do what I want to do.
Good education should teach us this. But no, education has let ue down.
I met li xx and another boy whose name i have forgotten on the bus. Li xx is still that kind of person who want to prove he is very clever. I don't like him. But i can feel that he treats me as the seldom person who walks on the same street with him. No, i am not like him. The only one from that school i hope to meet again is Bear-Z. But there is few connection between us. I will never meet him again. That makes me really sad.
