i want to stay at home i think the idea i hold before that i am not a child again, i can do every thing alone ,i am a mature girl.however when the moment that i left my home ,i knew i am not a mature girl , i am still the girl like to stay at home, i am the girl still like to stay with parents, i am the girl who still cry badly when i left home. today i went to school . i knew i am the last girl went to school cos most all students went to school on staurday and i cheated my father to let him agree me to go to school on monday, i told to him that i dont have lessons on monday, but actually i have three lessons on monday. everytime i leave my home to school ,i will cry badly .on the road ,on the bus.

why i miss the time when i was a middle school student. i dont know why when i surfed the internet,i miss my middle school suddenly.

why i cant fall sleep i closed my computer at 10 pm and went to bed. however i opened my computer at 11pm. cos i cant fall sleep. now is 1 am and i still cant fall sleep..and i am so sad about thatthanks, guy . finally i fell sleep at 2 am. and i am gonna take a nap.lol.

i know i am so terrible my parents went out today,and my mother ask me to take care of myself and my brother.she bought a lot of noodles yesterday cos she think noodle is so easy to cook.so i cook noodles for lunch. at first ,i thought the noodle i cooked is great.i added pork and prawn which my mother prepared to noodles and i asked my younger brother to eat and he said did u add salt.wow, i forgot to add salt and then i added some salt . my brother tasted again and he hurted me again 'do u know how to cook,it is so terrible, u taste it' and i am so sad and i taste . really ,it is not so delicious. my brother didnt eat noodles and went out for lunch.......so poor. if u dont want to eat ,u should let me know and i wont cook

do u know 2011 Shenzhen Universiade i find that not so many people know that event.

the reason i dont want to be a volunteer in ShenZhenWorld University Games yesterday， i went to dongmen pedestrian street which is very famous in shenzhen . i saw a lot of foreigners more than ever and i know the reason is that World University Games will be held in shenzhen very quickly and the opening ceremony is tomorrow. if i were in senior high school , i would be so happy and want to be a volunteer . however , i am not and i went throught 2010 asian games and i was a volunteer . and i know that it is not so fun to be a volunteer. i remember the time that i was a volunteer in asian game.my job is welcome the altheltes by dacing. we stand at one long road and there has fountain whose water can shoot more than 30 meters in both side and the water hit us who wear cocktail dress ,which make us wet totally .and u know the weather is a little cold.how pity we are.and not so many people would care about us.sometimes i would think that they didnt treat u as people. there has a lot of poor things and i dont know how to say. because of that, i have cried for many time. i need to go to the place which the opening and closing ceremony for training at that time and i need to stay there more than ten hours at training's days. i live in shenzhern ,and World University Games is a very important thing in shenzhen. however i am not intereted in that and when the guy phoned me to ask me to be a volunteer in Shenzhen World University Games and i said no. cos i know it is not so fun.

i am so sad i am so sad.. i just want to say i am so sad

why girl should get married and give birth to children i dont want to get married and give birth to children . however in china, if u dont get married or u dont have children, it is a very strange thing and i am so sad about that

i dont want to have children.... when i was young, i like children very much. when i saw chidren at the park, i would be very happy and wanted to play with them .howerver ,when i grew up and my older sister gave birth to two children.my nephew always go to my home.and they always creat lots of troubles which make me crazy and mad. from then on, i dont like children or i dont have enough patience to treat them.sometimes, they went to my home,i would stay at my room and dont want to go out. today ,my sister phoned me that she wanted to put her bigger son to my home and asked me to take care of him for one week. at first , i said no, i dont want to. but later i said yes. how can i do,she is my sister .and her son is my nephew. even though i really dont want my nephew stay with me for one week. i cant even take care of myself , how can i take care of ur son. i still my mother take care of me . and i have my own life. if i will be with ur son,my life will change. i cant do something i like. for example,i like stay at my room alone, i like dacing , doiing yogo, waching movies , chatting with my friends and so on. but if i need to take care of my nephew , i cant do that... i dont want to give birth to children , i know i am a selfish girl. if i have baby, i will lose myself , and i need to spend lots of time to take care of my children and i will so tired. i can't imagine that life ,it is so terrible. today i said to my mother ,i dont want to have children, my mum said i still so young and i shouldnt say that and i know that she dont agree with me.