Stagnation
I am starting to feel stagnation in my life. It is not about my family but about a career. After a failed attempt to start a business in 2014-2015 it took me a long time to find a job (due to the economic troubles). I started to learn programming, joined network administration courses, changed my speciality to software testing in IT security field, returned to study English... Anything to achieve well-being for my family. And I found a good job. I dreamt a lot about this company before...
And I stopped. I work well, I get good feedbacks on my results. But I stopped an improving of myself. My programming skills are stopped on the May-June level. I still have a problems with English speaking and listening, so I can't pass nor TOEFL or GRE with a good result. I know this is hard times in my country and I should be happy to have any job.
I want a progress, I want to continue my education, my study, to get skills that are in high demand. And I have some concerns. Just imagine: you spent years and years to get high qulified speciality and... no one needs you. Because it is the crisis or because low-qualified employees are more in demand. Like soviet engineers and scientists after the fall of USSR were redundant in the new system...
My mother told me:"Get a C drive license(for trucks). Who knows whatwill be..." Maybe she was right)))))) Sorry for a decadent text, I think it is because of the early autumn)))
IT's ok Mclo, maybe you are right and it is the feeling we all get at the end of the summer. Or maybe you are just tired and lost your motivation.
I am sure it's just a phase, and you will get back on track with your studies again.
Good luck!