How has the internet reshaped my life-path as a self-taught learner（Pt.1） (Please note that I've mostly just learnt English one-way, don't really have the opportunity to hear feedback, so I think my English tends to be over grandiose or inappropriate, y'know, second language learner often put as much big words as possible into their practicing. Please correct me with that!) As someone who has joined italki only recently, I'm still figuring out how things work here. I was born and bred in China and have learnt English as my second language. To be honest, initially I felt as if I should ONLY present myself as a professional name-card sort of figure. Until recently my language-partner inspired me to try sharing some personal story of learning, which is somewhat unusual. Through my life up to this point, the total time I was studying in school was no more than 6 years. This started off as an intentional choice in my 3rd grade, my parents wanted me to learn broader knowledge than the school's curriculum. This appeared to be quite 'crazy' to parents of my peers. Like the other working-class Chinese parents of their age, they didn't have access to good higher education nor can they speak English, yet they recognized the importance of English very early on so they decided to give me as much exposure of it as possible. A more exact word than 'homeschool' is 'selfschool', because for the most part, they just left me with a bunch of study materials, working my way through the learning process. I designed from scratch my own learning approach which follows a tempo that suits me. I would attend the school's final exams and got top grades. English was among the main things I learnt along those years. Another main focus was on violin-practicing, naturally that requires professional instruction and vigorous practicing, and so I did, for 8 years. We decided to return to normal educational system for senior highschool, since it's more demanding, college entrance was at stake at this point (schoolwork gets really overwhelming in Chinese high schools). However, unforeseen by any of us, I left school yet again not long after. But this time the reason's that my eyes has suddenly developed a dysfunction which makes me unable to read for more than some minutes. This blow striked me hard, because at this point, the 'high school - university - a job to make a living' seems to be the one and only pathway, every single person I've known are following that path. All of a sudden I'm officially an outlier, floating helplessly on uncharted water. …………