It still happens with me. I can't say I'm too weird or something wrong with me. It's not easy to love myself, it's not easy to take myself for who I am. I have friends, I do. I still have close people, I do. But I can't love someone cause I don't love myself. I don't know why I do have the heart. I wish I could not. But not cause then I could not express myself in the way I love, through the painting or writing. I've completely lost with my thoughts and with myself. 

Maybe it makes no sense writting these all. 

But I just wanted to share...no matter with whom.. 

Despite this, I wish each of us to be strong, to have the dream, to reach that dream, to become  someone good. We need to live in peace..

 Thank you. 

Thanks to all who shared with me. 

Sudeep, thank you. You're telling right things. I just keep on living and now I'm trying to do my best. I'm still so young but feels like I'm too old. I will change it. At least I'll give a try. And If I'm not weak, I will get rid of these bad thoughts which stuck in my head, of this gloomy face and etc..Besides, I have  to learn how to appreciate precious things around me. 

@Helen, I read all the comments and knew about others opinion on "loving oneself". I read your comment carefully and got to know that you love yourself but something is there which is hindering you to express it wholeheartedly. Right? 

I absolutely don't have any right to say you this but still as a stranger friend let me tell you what I think-- First of all just get rid of the profile picture you have given because it is not describing you as a joyful person. The picture is reflecting a gloominess inside you. So just put a picture of what you like the most or put your picture with a bright smile on your face. Because a picture is worth a thousand words. Remember one thing which I personally think is very true-- You were born an original so don't try to die a copy. Whatever people say about you(any negative remark or demoralize you), you don't have to worry as it's none of your business. Just stick to what you love and that will ignite the tendency to love yourself. Don't stop yourself from doing the thing you love the most rather let it come out and blow like a feather in the wind. If you don't know what you like the most, then never to worry because that happens with most of the people as they can't discover themselves, not because they don't have the potential to do so but they always think what would be others reaction! So don't think about what would other think rather think what you love to do. If you ever get upset, then go in front of the mirror and look yourself carefully and trust me, your gloominess will vanish in a second and you will laugh like anything:)

Lastly, happiness lies inside us but we get busy looking for it outside and that's why we often end up with hot tears. So let's not run behind the mirage of happiness rather just stay tune and find it in ourselves.:)

Keep smiling:)