Janury 12 Hi!, How have you been? I know there is a lot of time since I wrote something. Anyway the things here are in the same way that last time I wrote. I even don't remember how much time have been pass since I broke up with that unmentionable girl. You know lately I have been thinking I really need help I mean I probably have to go with the psychologist. I thought I can not sink me more but I guess I was wrong. Last December was my birth day instead of go to my family or with friends I decide to get lay with a hoocker. I have never done that really that was my first and probably my last time (if someone is reading really it is terrible have sex with that kind of people I mean you don't enjoy it really! it is cool sex I probably have no words to explain it but believe me you wont try). I know then I was lost, really lost I mean I never though I will be so pathetic to actually pay for sex. Anyway what else I could told you well I am still in the same work I know I already told I wanna move on but you know I have two interviews and any of those jobs caught my attention. First one seems to be same like now I mean, how do you say when a job is really hard I mean when in that job take a lot of your time that practically some times you have to be there 24/7 here in Mexico we call it "Negreros" ha.. and the second one well the place look ok. but I don't know I mean. How could I pick one if I am in this state. I don't know what to do, I fell like the life doesn't have sense. Some times I think I just need someone, someone to love me and help me to fell me alright; what people say it is your work to fell like that, that nobody could help you with that. I DON'T UNDERSTANT. But lately I am not sure if I am ready I mean what if I get someone but I still fell like this ? that will be really sad probably I will kill my self if that happen. Thanks for reading guys really Just in this way I fell like someone is listen to me. Have a good start of week :)