I didn't got the No.1,but I understand something more .Really something. I wanna be the most splendid one in my class.Really. I got an No.1 in the third semester, got another No.1 in the forth semester, but last semester ,namely the fifth,I am not. I didn't got the No.1,not because I didn't do well in my studys, oppositely,I had the highest mark in my class,but I had a record that is 2 classes' absence.That made me lose the scores which others could got. I didn't expect that absence would be so serious,would make me fell down from the chair of No.1.I really regretted for had down that. This time,the No.1 in my class is my best friend--Q. Q is a very lovely girl,she's just like my elder sister.She takes care of me whenever I met the difficulties and setbacks. So there are two kind of "me"in my brain. One said :"you are so stupid,you are not the No.1,how bad your performance is ,maybe you cannot get the scholarship this year ...." Another one said:"never mind,one would meet with a lot of setbacks,this is just one of those.Just take it easy,and also Q is the No.1,she is so hardworking,you really should be happy for her.don't you?" Yes.I should say"Congratulations" to Q,I should not be so mean,I have so many chances,If only I grasp them ,and fighting for them ,I will be better next time... And also,I had another gnosis.That is... Maybe my opponent is not Q,or A,or B,or C ,or someone else, but myself.