Hi Susie. Good job! Yes, everything that you wrote is true, but if that opportunity comes, wouldn’t you like to be prepared to take it? You will only be able to do that, however, if you continue your study of the language. Read more, and read aloud to yourself, as you will then not only increase your vocabulary, but also give your tongue and mouth muscles the practice they need to speak properly. It may seem like you are on a long and lonely road by yourself, but look at all the other people here on iTalki who are also learning English. Once you find a partner or two (or more!), learning will become much easier, I promise. Good luck. P.S. In the US, we overwhelmingly use “first” rather than “firstly,” on the scale of 524.56 to 1 per COCA.