Most challenging thing in learning English for me is learning/trying to use all the words, rules and idioms. Becoming an active user for all knowledge that I have learned. In a stressful situation (and speaking is still a stressful situation for me) I tend to use basic
language instead of more complicated tenses and new idioms. In fact, it's a complete disaster for my motivation to learn English. When you can’t see the results
it’s so disappointing. And almost every time I think I’m not enough. Even though I learn something everyday. I’m really into it and try to do some exercises and activities. I thought that maybe this is because I don't have a bigger idea/plan. You know, my studying exists by itself with no real goal. I just want to have a B2 level that’s it. Watching a tv series and stand-up shows
without translation. So today I had a sudden insight! I have to have a big goal and a
deadline for it. I made up my mind to pass the IELTS or TOEFL exam. Didn’t decide which one yet. And I’ll have a deadline to pass it by next summer! I need a learning plan for this year I think! How do you like this idea? Or maybe you know how to be proactive with all this language learning and to see more results.
I can really relate to your frustrations! When you don't have a lot of chances to practice verbal conversations, it can be hard to incorporate new words, phrases, and grammar. I think your idea of trying to pass a specific exam is a really great strategy! I really like using italki for this kind of learning. For a long time, I tried to teach myself, and so my progress was very slow. But when I started using italki, I found teachers who could help me find specific goals, and help me follow a textbook or other curriculum! It's a great idea to have a goal to work towards, if you just try to "get better" then you're right, it's very hard to see results. But this is a great idea! And a deadline will help you stay focused too.
This was really well written! Keep going!!