I will try to write something by myself in English.
There is only about 2 months for me to prepare for a university interview which will be bilingual, English and Japanese. So I have to improve my spoken English level and this is why I came here. I have already had an interview of another university in Japan last Saturday and I felt myself didn't do well. I am not so fond of that university, actually. I just need a visa. But the one which I am facing is my favorite(?) and I must pass the interview. Well, though I said "must", I even don't know if I would be in the range of candidates. I took a TOEFL exam last summer and got only 82, which is not bad for studying in Japan but only "not bad". It is too difficult to speak anything frequently for me so I got only 16 in speaking.
I am 22 years old now and even not in college. Like everyone else, I went to a university in China when I was 18. But I dropped out due to severe anxiety(which could not be told to the next university I admitted) and I tried to restart my life(?) at the age of 20 by studying abroad in Japan, then I ran into COVID-19. So 2 years have passed and my old classmates are going to graduate from university this summer while I am still a "high school graduate". If I can't pass this interview I would lose everything I had sacrificed. I must enter a better university than the one I have been in or everything I did will get in vain but I can't use so much energy(because of my anxiety or so what) to take more admission exams. Maybe I haven't work hard at all, or I don't know how to work. I felt my inside self "died" when I was 19, at that time I was on a trip in Tokyo and I suddenly felt I had lost my enthusiasm of strolling in bookstores, which had been my favorite activity in high school.