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How to Rebirth   I always avoid crowds, keep alone , if people show their genuine with me ,maybe I can chat for a long while with him, then ,I will regret of chatting with him a lot .Another reason is that I have not a normal life ,I dare not to chat with them a lot. Today several coworkers had talked about  their kids In car ,they are younger than me ,But all of them have a kid ,so I faked to sleep ,avoid to chat with them. In here I am not normal in people eyes. I do not want be gossip by others.   I had some traumas , I am inferiority throughout my life, I work hard and earn money to try to prove myself to people who had ever know me: I am capable, but it is so pale .   People will be jealous of that people who get some achievements in life ,but who had ever been despised by them ,people would like to enjoy to talk about her or his bad past, instead of their current achievement. If he or she meet some bad things, it is a great gossip for people. They like that topic, In China we always said ,it is not necessary share your achievement with others ,because of seldom people happy for you . you can be good ,but you can not good than them.   I really desire to rebirth, I want to be princess, I want to have a nice childhood, I want to be loved, I want to go to university, I also want to have some classmates. I would not like to be study and work hard anymore. Anyway ,I want to have a normal life.   As time as go ,I realized it is hopeless for me to be rebirth, even I can go abroad to study ,after graduate, It is still difficult to settle down on abroad, meanwhile it is impossible for me to pass the IELTS according to my current English level, student visa approval is also a big problem according to my current age.   Maybe death can bring rebirth.
Oct 1, 2020 4:36 AM
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How to Rebirth I always avoid crowds, keep alone , if people show they're genuine with me ,maybe I can chat for a long while with them, then ,I will regret of chatting with him a lot .Another reason is that I don't have a normal life ,I dare not chat with them a lot. Today several coworkers have talked about their kids In car ,they are younger than me ,But all of them have a kid ,so I pretended to sleep ,to avoid chatting with them. Here I am not normal in people eyes. I do not want be gossiped about by others. I've had some traumas , I feel inferior throughout my life. I work hard and earn money to try to prove myself to people who don't know me: I am capable, but it is so pale . People will be jealous of that. People who get some achievements in life ,but those who had ever been despised by them ,people would like to enjoy to talk about her or his bad past, instead of their current achievements. If he or she do some bad things, it is a great gossip for people. They like that topic, In China we always said ,it is not necessary to share your achievements with others ,because it is seldom that people will happy for you . You can be good ,but you can not better than they are. I really desire to rebirth, I want to be a princess, I want to have a nice childhood, I want to be loved, I want to go to university, I also want to have some classmates. I would not like to study and work hard anymore. Anyway ,I want to have a normal life. As time goes by ,I realized it is hopeless for me to rebirth, even I can go abroad to study ,after I graduate. It is still difficult to settle down abroad, meanwhile it is impossible for me to pass the IELTS according to my current English level. Student visa approval is also a big problem according to my current age. Maybe death can bring rebirth.
I feel for you. I wish I could be someone else with a normal life most days too.
October 1, 2020
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zji
Language Skills
Chinese (Mandarin), English
Learning Language
English