No, smelval, you don't want to. Otherwise, you'd just do it without putting it on the "discussions". You want people to talk you out of it. That's absolutely OK. Collect yourself and keep learning the most useful language. It's worth it.
Don't give up!
English is one of the most spoken languages in the world.
You will understand and communicate with people anywhere you go. In speaking you can know basics and still make a good conversation. If you need high corporative Knowledge of English that's not a problem either! English isn't very complicated so don't give up ! :)