I beg your pardon, but if you were born and spent all your life in an English speaking country, speaking English all the time outside home with your friends, at school and on the street, why on earth are you learning English now?

I can't speak for myself because my parents are Brazilian, but I think immigrant children usually have the 'identity' of the country they live in and kind of 'forget' their origin. One of my friends is half French and another is half Argentinian, they don't consider Spanish and French their native language and if someone asks them 'where are you from?', they will say: Brazil. 

I have heard about this several times, people that have more than one nacionalities as a center of the family.

You can do nothing about this, however, you can do about the other rest.

First of all: no matter who you are and what you do, people will always tell you what you have to do, believe, achieve, buy, study etc.

The list is long and you'll never be able to satisfied them all, so don't waste your time because your life belongs to you.

Second is that people (myself included) feel lost sometimes about their identities, so what you can do is shut all the noises around you, come back to your inner side and watch the things you like to do, what to feel and learn to come back to yourself day by day.

Unfortunately, we grow up absorving all the shitty things from our society and that's why people spend their lives on depression, self hate and doubts.

Try to learn how to meditate, it helps a lot and meet people that work with this.

Believe me: coming back to yourself is coming back to your first home.

I've been there....I will always be.