I want to smile but I can't. I don't understand: Making friend is very difficult with you, isn't it?
Making friends is easy, but making true friends is difficult ;)
Hi honey! I understand pretty well what do you mean when you say "I want to smile". Yes it sucks when you are alone at the college and you feel like you can't smile because you don't want to seem crazy. I also passed through but the point is you should starting to see the world with a positive glance. Loneliness is a moment that you'll miss when you have a family. So enjoy your loneliness as long as you can and don't blame others for your mistakes. If are looking for friendship in this website or wherever you need to start to build it. I mean you could start comment discussions, answering questions, correcting notebooks and so on. I'm sure someone broke down your loneliness :)
wise words @Damian
Perhaps it is wrong for you to even try to smile. At least, not until you have met a "true friend" as
Damian so profoundly indicates.
Perhaps you should not smile for "everyone". Smile for those who earn your trust and friendship.
Otherwise, offer the world the same indffereince the world shows you, if that is what you see.
Sometimes our solitude can lead us to loneliness. It is better, I think, to look at how we might use this time alone to accomplish something. Friends can be difficult to make sometimes, but as you build up your hobbies you may run into other people with similar interests. Don't give up hope and try your best to regain your smile.