"I should ????? to be the cause of any great disappointment my lord." Both my wife and I listened to this numerous times and cannot figure out what word he is using. It sounds like beside or maybe decide but neither word fits there based on current definitions. " I would be beside myself to be the cause of any great disappointment my lord" does work and we wondered if in old english his using beside meant this. But that is just wild conjecture. We need to see the script.