Do I understand this correctly?
"Seventeen years later when he showed up with a U-Haul rigged to his pick up outside my apartment in Nebraska, I hung my head and  couldn't bear to look at him, knowing all the pep talks and lectures he'd given me in that truck. Seeing him standing there, I was sure I had let him down. There I stood, almost nine months' pregnant and the father of my child long gone. I had called my dad twenty-four hours earlier to tell him I had given up. I couldn't do it all alone-raising a kid, living thousands of miles away from home."
-- What does "couldn't bear to look at him" mean?
-- Why is there no verb to the subject "the father of my child"? Without a verb, I think the sentence should be "there I stood, almost ... with the father of my child long gone."
-- My understanding is that this woman was about to give a birth in twenty-four hours and she'd decided to give up on the baby for being adopted or something. And she was going to tell his father. Do I understand correctly?