Dear miss Talira, I don't know why i entered this question and once inside I had a look at your profile. Reading your lines on the presentation I had a desire to meet you and to know you (I know it is stupid to say this in such a place like this) because your words are beautiful and I guessed that your soul is beautiful too. So, my answer to your question is that you shouldn't be worried now about what may happen after you abandon this life. It seems to me that you have a lot to live, to feel and to sense, so just do it and when time is due perphaps you get your answer. Until that moment, I think you don't need to waste your time with these philosophical questions which won't add for anything to your "dayly walking down the highway". In any case, just live now! Warm regards!