lost my way It's been a long time I didn't write anything , actually I am not good at writing . Today is the day that I came to Shenzhen for one year. It was like yesterday ,we got up on the morning ,picked up the books,and went to the classroom ,all thing seemed so beautiful ,the streets ,the students ,the yellow little car ,and the lovely classmates ,but it all gone ,and never be back . I knew that clearly ,and I can handle that ,because everything will move forward ,but I can't accept myself now ,the present situation ,the life style ,the thought ,and the action ,I deeply feel I lost my way . Every day , just like a robot ,woke up ,get up ,eat breakfast ,take the bus ,start working ,and then go home ,it's seems all ok ,but actually ,it all like a bull shit . It will cause many years later ,when I look back ,I just through one day ,and all the another day were just the repeatation ,I don't what should I do and also don't how to do it ,and even more worse ,I don't have a dream ,I can't find the thing that I love to do or anyone I am in . I am working ,eating ,reading ,running ,sleeping ...but just working ,eating ,reading ..... Life is like a mass , we shouldn't make it methodically. Maybe I will still lost ,but whatever ,let it go .