my stupid life I can't understand how people can stay hopeful in this cruel world . I can't either understand how can they enjoy their lives . they think I'm pessimistic and I think they're dreamers . I can't understand why we are created for . We get born , we die , and then no one remember as , nothing change , it's like we had never exist . What realy sudden me , is'nt death it self , it's the stupid life that we have between born and death , the fake world that we are supposed to live in . What should it mean for heaven's sake ! Why should we stay hopeful ! What we have to wait for ! I can't understand anything of this . I can't take it anymore . I really hate my stupid life .

my first diary 06/11/2015 Today is the six of November two thousand and fifteen , I decided that I should keep a diary if fact my mother tongue is Arabic but I think righting in English is better . It makes me more comfortable , so here I'm Today is my ex boyfriends birthday I don't think I still love him , but it's not that easy to forget him and to act like we've never been together so i've sent him a message to wish him a happy birthday . He didn't reply yet , I don't think he would ever reply . That makes me feel bad . We've separated a week ago . he may not forget me that soon . I knew him five years ago , he was my best friend . We start dating last year . I really loved him He's so romantic and funny , he's stupid sometimes . I loved the way he smiles with he's adorable white teeth . I loved everything about him , but he changed . I knew that he still love his ex girlfriend , but I wished that some day he'll love me . That didn't happen . he just left me . I cried a lot but I could get over that . It still hurts when I think about all that time we past together , all our trials and loughers . But there's nothing I can do now . All I have to do is waiting for a reply that i'll never receive .

do you know some English idioms ! what are they !

my first love My first love was a boy in 17 . I was 14 then I was a little fool girl and he was that cool boy that everyone full in love with he was a handsome funny and very romantic person although he was a good listiner I don't know how we became friends but I really was happy with this new friendship it just seemed nice to have someone who cares about me but I never thought we will go further neither dreamt about it oncr we talked about love he told me that one day I'll full in love but he didn't know that I all ready did I never told him but I loved him more than any thing else 4 months later he told me that he likes me and want me to date him I didn't know what to do I thought he was making a joke so I refused but then he convinced me that he really do so I accept we dated for a year that was the best time in my life unfortunately we separated getting over that was the hardest thing I've ever done but however I could deal with it . I'm. 17 now I had many other relations I've loved and been loved but none of them was like him he was special I don't think I'll never forget him

our english teacher asked as to write a dialogue between a mother and her daughter what do you think - hi - were have you been ! - out with my freinds - did you ask for permission before - pfffffff -i'm still talking to you - ok sorry may i go now ! -no you may not . i've talked to your teacher today - and ? - he told me that you didn't go to school for 5 days last week and that he's surprised of the way you've been acting those days . i no know what hapened to you the bigger you are the worse you become - can't you stop blaming me ! you never feel satisfied what ever i do you want more - i have all the right to be . i've always dreamt that one day you'll make me proud but all you've been doing was dispointing me - bla bla bla all day long - can't we have a good conversation for once ! -you want to talk ! ok let's talk you have been expecting a lot of me since i was a little child you wanted me the best at every thing . all you've been doing was giving me orders and expecting me to obey without questions . i'm not a little girl any more i grow up and i'm able to make my own decisions in my own life -all i wanted was just making you perfect i did my best to give you all you need - no you gived me what you thought i need and guess what ! i'm not perfect . i'm a normal teenager and i want to leave like a one - you could come and talk to me - you would not listen - of corse i do you are my baby girl -sorry mom