The 19th of September. About creation process. I like a creation process when any idea born in you mind and you feel that it could be really great but you can't be sure that it will be realising such like you see that in your imagination. It is the main intrigue which I like. The next great part it is a final when you see the result. It is always a discovery, useful lesson or big happiness. I will never use to the feeling of the not material idea of something that didn't exist before tern to the hat, chair, paste, or film. Recently I asked my friend to knit a hat for my another friend. I founded the yarn at home and created the design of hat. I wasn't sure that it will be like in my imagination but the result turned out even batter. Today I am cooking the apple past it is something like candied fruit jelly. I haven't ever done it before and I think it will be surprise.

17th of September. About my father. My father was born in big village 60 years ago and he was living in this house. He was studying excellent and was inviting to the famous technology University in the Saint-Petersburg. But he haven't wanted to go to the big city. He completed speciality of electrical engineer in the local technical school and moved to the Tichvin, my native town. He always helped me with my home work when I was studying in the school. I didn't like school subjects and studying was hard for me but my father explaining to me difficult physical process and mathematical problems. We training to writing dictations at home because he have native sense of Russian grammar that I didn't inherit. Because of my father the love to the physics and logical subjects awaked in me in high school. I really grateful him for this love it make me to understanding the the World deeply. Besides he have great since of humor. I am seldom meeting the people with such since of humor and when it is happening I always feel like they are my relatives.

15th of September. The village Today I am in the small village where my father was born. The school is situated near our house, and at a guess, there are ten childrens who study in one class nowdays. There were about 32 children in one class 50 years ago. Of the 30 cows which were living there before, none has remained: but wonderful things still do happen here. You may put a small seed in the ground and it would grow into a radish, a carrot or something else. It is like a miracle for me. There is a great harvest of apples this year. My mam is making an apple jam, and I am baking the charlottes. When there was such great of an apple harvest , two years ago, my father was preparing a very testy cider. I am always so happy hear! I am going to watch the sunrise tomorrow. It is a large charge of energy for the whole day, thought I have to get up at 5 O'clock.

13th of September. My native town. Today I am in the town where I was born that named Tikhvin. It is a small town in Saint-Petersburg region. Many tourists and religious pilgrims comes hear to visit the monastery to see the Tikhvin’s miraculous icon of Heavenly Mother. It is one of the most important and worship Russian miraculous icons that was lost in the perid of Second World War and long time being held in the USA. Icon was gave back to Tikhvin. It was big celebration in the city so our president come hear by helicopter. Monastery was reconstructed for the getting back the icon. It is very beautiful and calm place now.

12 September. Shopping center Today I spand most pat of day in the shopping center. It was really hard for me. I try to keep out of such place but circumstances forced me to do it. I came to Moscow for the job interview on one day and with mission "don't spend money" If you need wi-fi and calm it became not so simple mission. For example you can use the metro and milling around by ring line. There is free wi-fi but no calm. Else you can sit in the park. There is calm and bad fi-wi. I chose the shopping center. Here I can drink my testy herbal tea from the thermos and eat my dinner with a penny busters from supermarket instead of spoon. But need to be carefully for will not eat all spoons early than dinner, like me) I had been listening interview in English, drowning and chating with my friends by Facebook and I needed in all my concentration for abstract of atmosphere pointless fuss. Nobody is running or crying. Everybody is looking calm and I don't know why I am filling like something pushing on me hear, like I do something that I don`t want and shouldn't to do.

Inspired by Laura Pergolizzi (LP) I'v been listening to her song "Lost on you" (http://youtu.be/wDjeBNv6ip0) during last three days and patiently waiting for whan it to tire me. But it's not happening. God is shaning down through the soul of butiful, talented people. It's like Bob Dylan, Patti Smith, Morisson have waited for long time to be reincarnaited in one girl. My English level dasen't let me to understand the meaning of the words " lost on you". Is it the same like " lost with you"? I mean "I lost my pocket and all my money WITH it" or what hear means "ON you"?

The Land of Force I'm going to Katmandu at the beginning of November. I deсided, I should do that, when saw the film "Baraka" two years ago. The screens with Katmandu's square at the early morning impressed me very much. I even didnt't know what it the place is. Now, whan I'm going there, I feel it is a pleace from my dream. The people, who tall to each other: "I see the God in you" instead "Hi" should be know something more than others can understand. But I want to try. I have only one week for all and great plans. I want going to short tracking to Himalaya, because it is place where Buddha was born, where the Shambala mislayed, where the higest point of Earth located. It is great expereans, I think. May the Force be with me.

Love is a smile There are many people, places, musics, that can make me smile, that can change my mood totally. One of them Devendra Banhart. He is creating cosmic music that transforming my reality. I'm sinking in his deep voice and magic, athnic sounds of instruments. I'm begining to realize that oure world is a ocean of love. Thanks to Universe for this guy! .

The shots I'am studying English because want to live and work in another country, in diffrent countries. On masterclass in oure institute Takeshi Kitano told: "I didn't be able to choose one profession, all of them were interesting for me, that why I became a directe". I think of taking a camera with me in my long trip and making road move. To shot a documental film it is my dream now.