It's raining here, I hope you can hear it clearly🥲

I'm going to read the books which were on sale that I bought last year. The book is It's Okay, You're Just Different by Kim Doo Eung. I've been reading this book since last month. Yeah, I'm a professional procrastinator🥲. Let's just finish the book on this weekend. The book is about how mother raised their children who is becoming fabulous person. You might know these people. They are Thomas Alva Edison, Picasso, Einstein, etc. Beside that, maybe I'm going to do some exercise, such as running and playing badminton. I've started playing badminton since 2 weeks. Don't expect too much. I'm a noob player. I'm so grateful my friends are so kind and patient to teach me how to play badminton properly. I don't even know the rules😄. I've realized that my skin gets much smoother and the stretch marks are going to dissapear. That's cool. I thought I already loss some weight but sadly it's still same😅. Nevertheless, my skin will be glowing up and I feel happier. To be honest, my psychologist has diagnosed major depression to me. She has recommended me to do some exercise. At first, I don't believe it but I've been doing what she has said and I think it's working!

I didn't celebrate Christmas because of my religion. There are 6 religions in Indonesia. We've been respecting each other. If other religion has a ceremony day to celebrate, the government will give holiday to us. I'm loving it! We have so many holidays. That's not the point hehe. Personally, I was spending my Christmas holiday with my family. It had been a long time since I didn't come back to my hometown. Christmas day and new year were holiday that happening straight in a week. I had fun time with my family. I've started reading book by buying some great discounts book due to new years.

In my opinion, one of the challenges of language learning is being consistent to practice it everyday. I've been learning English for a long time but if I have to speak in front of native speaker, I will keep silent. My speaking skill is still not good. Someone has said it is because I have not used to speak or think in English for daily conversation. I can re-study the grammar but what's the point if I'm not going to use it in daily life. Learning other language ain't easy and I greatly appreciate people who is sacrifying their time to learn a new language.

Today, I had an examination. Although it didn't go smoothly but at least I can breath now. Gladly, the supervisor who tested me were kind. He was not intimidating but I still trembled because of the tension that I couldn't handle. I wish I could get rid of my panic attack. It's getting worse. I have to see my psychologist to help me. Sorry, I should talk about something good but nevermind I'm ranting about my problem here.

Hi, Im from Indonesia. In my opinion, there's no such thing as an Indonesian culture cus there are at least 300 ethnic with their own distinctive cultural object. I'm going to tell you something about Indonesia. Indonesian loves to eat spicy foods. We have our own sauce which called sambal. If you're visiting my country, you will find sambal in every restaurants. Sambal is made from a mixture of chilli, onion, little bit of salt, tomato, and sometimes we put "terasi" to enrich the flavour. Terasi is made from shrimp but the smell is very strong even some Indonesian can't resist it. We make sambal in traditional way by mashing the ingredients or nowadays we are using a blender. Another thing about Indonesian is we love rice. Eating is not complete without rice. It's like the most Asian countries who love rice. We eat rice thrice a day. I think that's normally what we do but some people might not eat rice too. In my case, my mom would definitely be angry if i don't eat rice in a day. Although if we had eaten bread or other carbohydrate sources, we still have to eat rice. I love red rice more because it's more healthier than white rice. It's really good for weight loss because of the low calories. Hey, i put the sambal picture here. If you're visiting Indonesia please try sambal and enjoy the painful pleasure of spicy foods.

i got this pict from someone that i adore. he is pretty good with singing and playing guitar. i've been knowing him since 3 years ago. he has been struggling with some mental health issue but he's doing fine now. i've learned a lot from him. let's say he is kinda being my muse? one of the thing that i learned from him was there's nobody who's perfect. ppl make mistakes sometimes and that's normal. like this pict, his heart is so soft.

Please correct this thankyou I have so many concerns. I'm afraid if I am not good enough for everything that i did. I did a lot of mistakes and sometimes i can't forget how embarrasing i was. Some people said that failures and mistakes are the things that shape me into who I am. These days, i'm focused on how to love myself more. I've started to appreciate little things that i achieved like wake up in the morning, talking with my mom, I can walk as normal people do, I can wash dishes, helping my grandma, etc. Small little things can make big difference right? I've also started to read books, especially self developmental book. I've tried to cope my stress by doing fun things like singing, watching movies, or calling my friends to keep in touch because of corona I can't meet my friends physically. I hope I'm getting better and loving my self more.

Please correct this thankyou I'm just literally lollygagging all of the time. I've started listening to the podcasts on spotify. I was a little bit disappointed because yesterday my fav podcaster didn't do his job like usual. He needs to take a rest while recovering from psychological anxiety. Eventhough he didn't go through on any live platform, he still went online on his social media just to give some news about his current condition to his fans. How sweet he was. Fortunately, he is doing fine and i hope he will recover quickly. His podcast topics ain't that really matter in this life but he always brings up the topics that might be popped up on your mind before you're going to sleep. Nowadays, we call it as 3 am thought. I can relate to the topics as well because i can't sleep regularly. Corona has successfully changed me into a professional night owl :) I always have some random thought at night, sometimes it can be my overthinking that haunts me everynight or maybe just because i can't sleep unreasonably. Besides that i also have started reading a book (please give me applause). I've been reading a book called the alchemist written by Paulo Coelho, he is a Brazilian novelist. Though I haven't finished reading it but i can barely say that the book talked about a men who had a big dream, wanted to travel to Egypt because he wanted to see pyramid and sphinx so bad. The thing is the struggle of his desire to fulfill his dream wasn't easy peasy lemon squeezy. He was poor but fortunately he could read. He was a shepherd who owned 60 sheeps but he sold his lovely sheeps to earned money. You know what i don't wanna give spoilers to you but he was robbed halfway through. Poor him. Okey, the other shenanigan is i installed italki app to improve my english because i'm not confident with it especially with speaking and writing so yeah i hope this lockdown thing turns me out into a better person who has confident in english. Thankyou.