I would like to get married, but I don't even have a boyfriend. Some of my friends start getting married and I felt left behind. I think the last time I had a crush was like when I was a high school student. I couldn't tell him my feeling because I don't have an enough courage. I don't fall in love since then. I really hope that I will meet someone that I like and like me back. Every time I see couples in downtown, I felt so jealous. Why couldn't I have a boyfriend. Everyone seems have it. I would like to be loved and I would like to love someone. How and where do they meet and start relationships. I just can't understand. I felt fear of being left on the shelf.