いえ、私は言じないだ嫌い。
No, I am not saying that I hate it but when people in my family make fun of or don't understand the passion, excited I get when I study Japanese; that's what upsets me. 嬉しくない。。。かなし!
I wish that they could understand the effort I put in and the enjoyment I get from studying one of the languages I love, but they don't. I study 3 hours max a day which includes 漢字, vocabulary and grammar.
I have gone from simple words and phrases like "美味しい and こんにちは" to full sentences like the one I have written at the beginning of this discussion.
All I want is even a little support and for them to say yes to go to my dream to go to Japan to study more there and to see the amazing places there. But no, I am not allowed that.
That's all I really wanted to say as I have no other places or people to understand me or explain my problem/thoughts with.
At the end of it all; しょかない。

