Okay~I wanna want to write something here..

Isn't that the same as consciously making the decision not to to not let love into your life?

Sometimes you play a game even when you know you're gonna going to lose,

or sometimes you leave a game even when you know you can win....

I'M BLUE NOW= = I feel blue, now. 

When you miss somebody, you'll never know who forget who you are.. That's totally stupid... It becomes a difficult predicament.

I'm so tired from trying to know...

Mabye it is more than that

or perhaps someone knows...my unknowns....



Everything is ok...unless I scared myself...

It will be ok. 

It must be ok. 

So..I suppose I'm not strong enough, huh...even though I always try my best to escape from the actually truth...



Whatever..never say never...



where is my absolutely freedom?

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This sounds like an introverted passage. In this scenario, it is okay to overuse elipses (...) because you are trying to convey a personal thought. Words such as "gonna" may also be used in this context, but are still highly informal.