fear makes nothing I don’t know why I am so angry; the feeling comes without any sign. But I know I am just so unsatisfied about myself. I am not supposed to share it with anyone; I would like to stay alone, and to digest it in silence. Bad mood erode my ambition and the willingness to insist my dream, I know I should not depress, I know I should keep going, I know I should look forward. Two years ago, I finished my master study in Germany with pride as the other graduates, I was such a happy girl, I thought I was holding a promised future in my hand. I graduated from one of the best university in Germany, I was one of the Students, who finished his/her study much faster than others, I did lots of internship in various companies when the other was busing of all kinds of parties. Two years after, lots of things has changed. I got married, I learned Germany, I made new friends, I moved into the new House, but I am still preparing, to be a qualified businesswoman, to fulfill my dream. I didn’t work, because I am always thinking, that I am not good enough, but now, I start to doubt, whether my thinking of carrier is right or not. Maybe I should not waiting, maybe I should start my carrier now. I could not wait when everything is prepared, because it could be a no ending story. I should not be afraid of working in Germany. I should do it right now. To apply for the job, even though I am rejected. I should not be afraid, because fear makes nothing!