Where is the ending of my English study?

(Don't understand what you meant by this sentence. Maybe you meant: Why I didn't manage to study English today. Or: What happened to my plans to study English today?)

I am was lazy again today, I have been aimlessly surfing the Internet for 2 hours with no any aim, I know it was just wast time that I was just wasting time. I pray to god please let me stay peaceful, leading my heart to stronger and stronger. I pray that God will help me find peace and make me stronger.