Confused by a line of a movie. I watched a movie and there is a line which I can't understand. There are some lines in the movie like below: You are so fortunate here. I think I used to despise you all, with your little whims and desires, all leading up to nothing. Now, there is nothing I want so much as to share them. And I cannot. What does the third sentence mean? I know "so much as" means "even", but I feel that it doesn't make sense here if it means that.