my neighbour I have a boy next door who is always fooling around. He goes out a lot and I rarely see him at home. I didn't like him cause he does nothing but playing, drinking and gambling. One day, I asked him the reason why he played like that, why he hadn't live a seriously way. He smiled and said it was his life. Another day, I met him drank. I sat next to him. I saw tears in his eyes. And he told me, he tired of his life. People around him (even me) didn't even know what was inside his beautiful house. His family members had never talked to each others for years except arguing. They had never eaten with each other, if had, only eating. He didn't want to come back home because it was not home, it was hell. He had tried to fix his hell but he could not. I asked why he hadn't done somethings positive like studied harder to get a good job and had his own happy family. He said that doing the bad things was easier than doing the goods and he was not strong enough to make it. Now, I don't dislike him anymore. But I hate it, the way he gave up. I don't think blame on situation is right but maybe I don't live his life so I couldn't think the ways he does

My day was totally sucked Today, it rained continuously. I feel like cry with the rain. I had been waiting for more than two hours for the interview then they said they were sorry. Their reason is the boss (interviewer) had to go out immediately for some private business. I hadn't got a chance to talk to him. I got so upset, why did I go out in the heavy rain and got all soaked for nothing? More unfortunately, my bike broke therefore I had to walk with my broken bike for 7km. It was 1pm and I hadn't eaten from the day before. I was so tired.

What should I do? I've fail my 3rd interview. Because of that, I'm so disappointed at myself. I've known all the time that no pain no gain, but I can't stop hating myself. I'm such a weak person whom does not confident and always thinks negatively.