How to say "惆怅"in English？ 你让我很惆怅！ 你这个样子让我很惆怅！ This words make me serious ill.

What a day it is today! The sun shines badly, but the air is so day to breath. I cann`t believe such a anoyying man is my boss. He never stops teaching me how to be a person, not working. You make me very "ChouChang", thats his mouth word. OH god, help me!

It is so cold. The New Year holiday has been over for several days, I am on my job since that day, but still I am not working. It`s so weird that it seems everyone are doing the right thing they ought to do. Time goes by and nothing changed around the circle. My friend told me that I should go to the south, because it is much warmer there. With so much things to do, that I cann`t leave. I want to go home, but it is too far away. It is so cold, but it dosen`t snow.