My favourite memory of childhood is playing with little animals, and my favourite one is a Li Hua cat. She was very old, and none of my relatives know about her past. My mother often sent me to my grandparents and I always played with this cat. I loved her soft hair and sweet voice, and often bought her food. She was raised in free-range by my grandma, so she always waited for her meals in the yard. Then one day a neighbor told me that her name was Xiao Hei(小黑, little black) and somehow she had been abandoned many years ago, which is why she was a stray cat. When I was in blue mood, she always rubbed up against my legs, so I thanked her a lot for being my best friend who was always by my side. She has been dead for almost 7 years. I got a bit sad when I heard her silent death. I always think of her when I see the Li Hua breed cat. Because of her, I fall in love Li Hua breed. She is always in my heart.

Lotus is a friend of mine. She had tried her best to attend senior year again, but she just owned her entrance certificate of specialized college. One day, she and her parents had a lunch with her relatives. When the relative got to know that she is a student of specialized college, he said it must be Lotus who don't study hard that go to specialized college school. She said she didn't want to see her relatives anymore. Though Lotus is not good at knowledge-aquired courses(文化课), she is quite gifted in drawing! She is so enthusiastic about drawing that she draws pictures every day! P1 and P2 is two of her drawings. However, the income of her family can't afford the fees of painting studies. Also, she doesn't adapt to the high pace of life in China. She said she wanted to live the life that gives her enough freedom and space of creativity. She wants to step into the art world, but she can't. What a pity! Now she insists on drawing every day. She is frustrated about her life and even, maybe, throw the handle after the blade(破罐子破摔). Sometimes I remind her to get the certificates that she needs, but I don't know whether she remembers, because she is not good at planning and gathering essential information. Routines or plans will wear her out. Also, she has no desire to get married or give birth to a baby, because if she gets married, she will be a homemaker, and China has low level of gender equality... many women are threatened by domestic violence nowadays. For example, her father once held a cook chopper to threaten her mother in front of her. They often argued besides her. Meanwhile, there are too many fairs of gender inequality in China, so she is antipathetic about marriage. One day, I said, "I hate chores, you can do chores and cook for me and I'll give you money, pay by day end(工资日结). It is fair, (lol)." She is happy about what I said. Maybe it will become true one day? (P1:Makima from Chainsawman P2: Eternity from Dungeon & Fighter)

Is it difficult for Chinese people to express their feelings? -Yes, it is. Many Chinese people won't express their feelings directly. When you are a child, your parents have more power than you, so you have to follow the feeling and ideology of your parents, not yourselves. If you don't agree with your parents' feelings and thoughts, they will scold you or even hit you. So the desire to express their own feelings is surpressed from an early age.

there is no differences…/there are no differences…/there are no difference which is more casual?

I had a net friend, Feiming, who was in BAD(Bipolar Affective Disorder). We had gotten along well for almost 6-7 years. But tonight he suddenly asked me if he had disappeared...