I regret my word. I live with my parents. but I could't see them sufficiently. We only have met 10mitutes in one day. Casue they have to earn money, working in our store all day. Our family is little poor. So If Iwant to eat some special thing, I will have to endure it. If there is special day like birthday or children day or christmas, I can eat some special food like chicken, pizza or else. (Actually my parents said me to tell if i wanna something to eat, but I just can't tell them..) I feel like I'm a looser or surpluse person.cause I don't study hard. nevertheless i have to study hard. (the only thing what i have to do is study..well) today, When I went home, some parcel arrived at house. It was a air mattrass for me. I called mom. and I told 'why did you buy this? with angry voice. and 'never again buy without my opinion'. and I cryed. Is it weird? why I am angry for her and cry. Cuase I thought that We have not much money, and I live useless life for our family So I don't want spend any money for me. But I know my mom's heart. maybe she wants I seep more comfortable, and I will like this mattress. So my heart is more sad.. I hate this situation what have to concern favor. and very sorry to mom. above all I hate my self. Why I am not study?? uh??... plz study hard. make plan.... anyway I think the key is only STUDY!..... : (