being dumped by my nerdy Australian boyfriend It all sounds the same. An international student fall in love with a native speaker, he helped her a lot in her language speaking and writing. They have a more reliable relationship than others because they understand the importance of communication and value differences. They had a peaceful sense of intimacy, sharing of slangs and food, exploring fashion and books. They also broke up once, then they were back again because they still loved each other. It all sounds the same. Then they moved together, they were missing each other when she left away for a holiday. Then they consumed all sweets in short period of time. He lost interest in living with her. He doesn't try to fix this living relationship and love relationship anymore. He said he doesn't love her anymore, he said it's complicated to explain his feeling. He felt intense and negative in front of her. She didn't realise this at all until she mentioned if they should live separately because he seems to prefer to live alone. It all sounds the same. She is desperate, sad and hopeless. She only told one person, because she doesn't want to repeat their break up too much. She started to write a research paper and a blog post to analyse her mood to reduce her sadness or fondness of him. It all sounds the same. She read tons of online forums or posts: how to do in this situation, can they still be together, should they still be together? She knew she has high self-esteem, she will not beg him back. She doesn't even know which part went wrong. She reads all those break up quotes and feels tearing inside, but she can't cry in front of others. It may sound the same. They still live together, after they talked about the breakup, they haven't met each other for 6 days. It felt like been a year, it felt like she becomes an old tombstone and fully covered by dead grass. She is burning out her energy in the gym, writing, music, painting, and psychology. She knew all these sounds crazy, negative and bitter. She just can't stop to doing this now. ahh, stupid her.