Without name I try to return to English studying, so I will write something here in English. When I was studying Hebrew I listened Hebrew audio courses everyday. I noticed whole words what I didn't know and studied them. And I was listening one topics many times. 10 -20 times. Now I try to apply this method for English. But my English level is strange, currently I can't find interesting and nice English audio course for me. I found ESL podcast, and started. I understand a ''big picture ", but I have a serious problem with new words. I can't remember them. Currently I can't tell in English about a topic I am listening it. I only hope, this problem decreases after sometime...

Without a name I didn't use Italki close year. I was busy, I was using another apps. Now I see I need return to Italki and return to English studying. My problem is I don't like English. I am studying Hebrew with pleasure. Now I see my Hebrew's level is good. I can say, I am fluent in Hebrew. It's not true, but I can say. My English level doesn't grow. I understand a simple grammar. But I can't read books, watch TV. There are many videos what I can understand, I hope I understand them), but my level is not enough for me. So, I need return to English language studying. And this note is first trying to return

speaking problems When I was starting to learn Hebrew, after first year of study ( an intensive study) I started to use "language exchange". It was a very positive experience for me. ( It was not on Italky). I thanked my hebrew partner, he gave me a great opportunity for my further studies, my Hebrew level was is low, but I had begun to speak, I hadn't afraided to speak, I hadn't afraided to mistake. Further I continued to study Hebrew using language exchange. ( Certainly, it isn't exclusive method, only support). Many times I tried to repeat this experience with English study. But I failed. My problems with little vocabulary, fear to speaking remain. When I start to speak English I don't remember simple English words ( I can remember only Hebrew translate)). I understand that there's Hebrew study in Hebrew environment, and I haven't some english environment. I can write and read simple ( and not simple)) texts in English, but I can't speak a simple text in English. I found English podcast with my leve and I listen it every day some times in everyday, and I may tell I understand it without problems, even I don't know all words from a podcast. I found an English podcast with higher level, and I can understand "a big picture", without details. But I can't speak, I confuse, I fear to make mistakes. This text was wrote with the training goal, without dictionary. Excuse me, It is not a lamentations.

"to international women's Day" Sometimes I observe posts about looking for an exchange partner only female. I think I understand reasons of such posts. ( I don't write such posts, but anybody can have some reason for selection language partners) However a reaction is very interesting. In first men is starting to respond. I don't understand, they did not read a whole post, or wait that will be an exception... Further men is starting to wonder why they cannot be an exchange partner. Later women write. I can't see what will after. I guess women find an exchange partner who they want. But now I observe a situation, that I can't understand a man's motivation. So, there's a standard post " looking for sume female partner for Turkish study". A topicstarter explains that she has a turkish boyfriend, and wants to practice Turkish only with girls/women. I saw this post in February. This was a regular thing: men, men who didn't understand why not, women... And today I anew have seen this post, there is a new comment from a man. Later a month and after a tens women's proposes who offers that she will pay him for exchange language! He had written it will a guarantee for good studying relationship! I don't understand what he hopes.

על ספרים אני לומדת עברית, ולמען הלימודים האלה אני משתדלת לקרוא בעברית כל הזמן. אני כבר התלוננתי בפעם שעברה שיש לי קשות קריאת עיתונים, אז אני קוראת ספרים. רק ספרים. עדיין הבנתי שהניסיון השלישי לגבי קריאת ספרים עמוס עוז נגמר. בכלל לא יכולה יותר. הוא לא מעניין לי, לא נוגע לי. כרגע קראתי יותר מחצי הספר, ומשעמם לי. ברוסית יש ביטוי מדוייק על זה ''למשוך חתול על זנביו'' ( тянуть кота за хвост) ו''למרוח דייסה לבנה מעל שולחן לבן'' ( размазывать белую кашу по белому столу)!. ובכן אני מרגישה כאילו אני עושה את זה פעם ראשונה בחורף שעבר ניסיתי לקרוא ''קופסה שחורה'' הספר היה עם אותיות זאירים כך שכאבו לי עיניים, ומה שחשוב הספר בעצמו הוא. ספר דיכאוני. אחרי חודש הפסדתי, הבנתי שמספיק בשבילי לקרוא את בעיות ללא סוף... בקיץ עשיתי ניסיון חדש, לא זוכרת את שם הספר, עזבתי אותו אחרי עשרים עמודים. גם דיכיון. עכשיו אני מנסה לקרוא ''לדעת אישה''. בהתחלה היה מאוד מעניין, קראתי כמה פרקים בבד אחד, אבל במשך זמן פעולות הספר עצרו, לא קורה בעלילה שום דבר, רק מחשבות של הדמות הראשית. כאשר אני קוראת אני מבינה שהספר הוא טוב, והספר הוא אומן אמיתי, אבל אני מתעייפת מהקראיה הזאת. זה ממש רשימת בעיות של חברה ושל בני אדם. ובכן כנראה אני אחזור למאיר שלו.

about books I am studying Hebrew, and I hope my hebrew level will close to fluently in next year two years. So I am reading hebrew books everytime. ( I am using dictionary) I find some interesting book, it very help me to continue my studies. So three time I was trying to read Amos Oz's books. He is a classic of modern hebrew literature. But he is extremely bored for me. I stoped to read "A black box" in last winter, I thought because they're tiny letters in the book, that I had found in a urban library. However this was not right, because the reading was difficult for me. Difficult and hard, there is problem situation in a family was discribed very cleary without hope to a "happy end". I last summer I tried return to reading Amos Oz. I don't remember a book's name. I was able to read only several chapters. It was a list of hard situations in a main person's live. Now I am reading " To know woman" ( I don't know how it is translated from Hebrew right)). It's my record, I was able to read more that half of the book. However I understand, I cannot more. It is a depressive book. A main character always thinks about his life, and mistakes and don't do anything only simple house work. I understand that is really good book, good philosophy book, but I can't read it now. So I will turn to Meir Shalev. He is funny

רמת שפה אני גרה בארץ כבר ארבע שנים. שנה וחצי אני לומדת במכללה, אני מסוגלת לקרוא ספרים ומאמרים ( לפעמים עם מילון לפעמים בלי), אני מבינה את ההרצאות. אבל באותו זמן אני לא תמיד מבינה סרטים, בדרך כלל בקושי מבינה עיתונים ואפילו פוחדת לבדוק איך אני מבינה חדשות בטלוויזיה. יש מקרים שאני מדברת טוב עם אנשים ברחוב, בחנות וכל מוסד ויש שנדמה לי שאני בכלל לא מבינה אותם. אני כותבת בעברית בדרך כלל בלי קושי, אבל לפעמים עושה שגיאות טיפשיות, יש ביטוים, צורות של מילים שאני בכלל לא מכירה אותם. אני בקושי מבינה כתבי יד לא ברורים. אני כל הזמן שוכחת על ה' ומתבלבלת מילות קישור את' ול'. אז איך אני יכולה להבין איזה רמת עברית יש לי? מתי אהיה מסוגלת להגיד: יש לי רמת עברית גבוהה?

Я тобi не дорогенька (с) I am using Italki more 1.5 years, and I read a many complaints about "how difficult to find someone partner for language exchange". I agree with this, it's not simply. however it's not simply in other sites too. So, because I have some experience, I will try to tell about it. When I had started I answered to each messages, now I don't answer to each. Because I don't find a marriage partner, virtual datings, flitring and sexting. I only study languages. ( I believe that some studies can be starting relationship, and I think It's fine, but this is not my first goal) So I don't answer to first message with words " dear", "beautiful" etc. because "Я тобi не дорогенька"))) I don't answer to promise help with English. My English level is not well, so I cannot help. I don't answer when anybody writes he wants to study Russian, but he haven't known any russian letter. I tried to help several times, but I understood that in several time people don't study language, they are finding some other... and if there are studying Russian and studying Mandarin with starting level in a profile, this is second signal. I don't try to speak with younger, because it's very difficult to find some theme interesting for both. I don't like new profiles without an introduction but with many languages starting level. However I always answer to Russian/ Ukrainian massages even with a lot of mistakes. Or letters with explained goals. My goal in this note is only practice English, and I don't try to explain something, or recommend something. I only try to search a not bored theme for my notice. ( this note was wrote without a dictionary).

English podcast I have a problem with english podcasts. I cannot find interesting podcasts for me. when I was starting Hebrew, I had listened a lot of Hebrew audio courses with different levels. ( I had started with simple audio , and it ia differing with my Hebrew skills)). However those Hebrew audio was interesting and understanding for me. Now I try repeat this method with English, but I find or simply audio, and I bored when I listen it, or very difficult for me. And I don't understand a half of word, so I can't understand a text. and I stop to listen. Obviously my problem is my English skills. ( I wrote this note without a dictionary))