Back 1 I've been away for a while since I forgot the password to this site. My absence was also partially due to the fact that I had been busy dealing with endless trifles in my uneventful life. Fortunately, I’ve got the password back through the email address I registered this site with. I feel glad that I am able to use this site again. A sequence of things had happened during the period I was absent. In the last article I mentioned that I had begun my life with a new job in a newly-rented flat. The hope (or expectation, or any name you would like to call it), which I thought the new job was going to bring to me, has already been substituted by some more real and concrete ideas such as tiredness, anxiety and disappointment. To make things clearer for readers (if there is anyone reading this), and to avoid myself being called unsatisfying or ultra-pessimistic, I am going to add more details on the several months in my recent life. Life…Life of mine has been a certain kind of routine, which is rather stale and predictable, while at the same time, it is exhausting. A long time ago when I was not yet beaten by the cruelness of reality, I though life could only either be excitingly exhausting or comfortably boring, but it would never be any other way round, if you know what I mean. But now, my life seems have been fallen into the worst collocation, which is, yes, boring and exhausting.

日本語を勉強したい！ こんにちは。始めまして、よろしくお願いします。 私は英語の教師です。だから毎日に英語を喋ってします。多分二年前に私は日本語を勉強しました。そして少しい日本語を解ります。「ぎんたま」は大好きのＴＶアニメです、そして「ナルト」、「陰陽師」、「ラスト・フレンズ」、宮崎駿の映画。杉田智和は一番好きの声優です。でもやっぱり「ハチミツとクローバー」が大好き。 日本語が難しいと思います。時々泣きたいんだ。:(　 でも諦めない。日本語を勉強したいのです、教えてください！

so mang things to do >.< I handed in my notice this morning. My boss was understanding and all resignation talk was just smooth, even joyful I dare say. We actually had the best chat ever. My boss was so nice to promise to write me a reference letter when needed. I was so gracious and felt really grateful to him. He is a good man. I asked him to keep this thing low-key so not all my co-workers would gossip about it before I leave. I would hate to become a topic of this kind. I will be working here for one last week and going to embrace a new career next. Is it a bit bizarre to say that I was not able to make straight suggestions before the moment that I said I was leaving this job. I am kind of a "Ms Softie". I am afraid of getting anybody in trouble so I never complain or make any suggestion that may be considered "rude" or be potentially hurting to other co-workers. Everytime I was affected my someone else's mistake or irresponsible performance, I did not report them to my boss directly, instead of that, I talked to them asking not to do that again and digested my loss without asking for any compensation. However, the truth is, the accumulating annoying stuff I tried to ignore and let go were underrated, they have been not only affecting my work but also to some extent dragging down the whole company's running. Thank heaven I have told already to my boss. Being a softie is not good and I should work on it. I should be more "merciless". OK, enough for the old past-time thing. Let's talk about the new bright future for a bit change. First thing is I need to find a new flat near the new workplace, which means I'll have to cease the lease of the flat I live in now and start to browse house-renting ADs once I've got time. Everybody knows how stressing moving house can be. There is no need to emphasize the tiresomeness more. Of course new house appliance are needed. Everything in my life needs reinstalling. Ah, again, that is one of the moments that I wish I have a man, or, just be a man. Haha, joking. ╮(╯_╰)╭ Anyway, I'd better just depend on myself. Buck up, lady!

dilemma I went to a job interview this afternoon. It was very smooth. The company gave me an oral offer immediately after my presentation. The person in charge seemed very pleased with my performance. They said a lot about what the future work would be involving and some detailed rules concerning this position. However, after the initial joy of getting the job, I am now in a sort of worry, or say, I find myself is very reluctant to make a decision. I am hesitating. I start to think of all the advantages of my current job and all difficuties I may come across in the new job. I called my dad asking for advice. Don't judge me please. Even though I am 25 this year, I do consult my family before I make big decisions for I need more experienced people's opinions. So my dad's opinion is: I should accept this offer. The reasons are: 1) I will be rewarded a lot by overcoming the incoming difficuties. All I need to do is adjust myself and establish a positive attitude. 2) I've given no room for any possible promotion in my current company. I have devoted 2 whole years working there and that's a good-enough conviction for moving on. 3) I will be more self-disciplined for the rules and regulations are stricter in the new company. At least I won't have any chance to get up after 7 AM. I won't stay up late since I need to get up so early. Hence healthier lifestyle is guranteed. I said I don't know. Maybe I am just afraid of changes. I wish to go back to university and learn something new. I am not overly fond of the idea of working. My dad thinks that I am just being too naiive. He is a realist while I am a idealist. I got sick by seeing people doing everything with some so purpose instead of true real passion. I was born to a wrong time I think.

Diary 2012-08-23 I was out this afternoon for I had some errands to run. I cannot say it was scorching outside, but it was still quite hot. I was sweating a lot on the bus back home, not to mention I was holding a not very light plastic bag after doing grocery shopping for a week's worth of foods. I guess that is one of the moments when I think I'd better get a man. Just joking. Yet I am happy and contented. Now I am eating a bunch of grapes and browsing my favourite magazine comfortably on my couch. Of course I am checking out Tumblr and this site too. There is not much good stuff worth reading on that magazine though. It was good before. It's getting cheesy when it becomes more popular. Now it is stuffed by all kinds of cosmetic ADs and pretentious advice given by some famous experts whom I think have no idea what is going on with this society. That's sad when I think I may stop buying it some time in the future. I think I am witnessing its lost of value and its final fall. Today is Qixi Festival in China. Qixi literally means the 7th of July on lunar canlender. In traditional Chinese legend, Niulang (literally means the cowherd) and Zhinu (literally means the weaver fairy) meet on the bridge of magpies. They were a human-fairy couple parted by the Emperor of the heaven. Yet their great love story and courage moved the stone-made heart of the Emperor who finally consented that they could meet with each other for one only time on the 7th of July every year. Hence the Qixi Festival. Although today sometimes today is called Chinese Valentine's day, I don't like the idea much. For these two cultural events are totally different and should not be compared in any way. I just don't like the idea of westernising everything from China. No hard feelings. Today is still a merry day and I am still an open-minded person. :D

First notebook entry: Introducing myself Well, I did not expect I would be asked to actually write a composition here. OK, I will try to put down something readable as a start. First thing to say, I love English as a language. I am here, because I want to polish both my speaking and written English. I am looking forward to traveling/ working in western countries in the future. My native language is Chinese, and I grew up in China, of course. I enjoy cinema, music, literature, cooking, and traveling. Sometimes I spend a whole hour or even afternoon doing nothing but simply sitting still and thinking. I don't know what I am thinking about usually but I am sure I am not insane and I do feel recharged after that "idling of mind". It's like an Odinsleep of mind, haha, if you know what I am talking about. So, it's basically what I am. Looking forward to meeting you, dear friend.