I know that I am lucky and I feel grateful every day. However, I can't help sometimes hating myself for being so lazy or sometimes in helpless or negative thoughts of stop trying or feel frustrated in some situations. I feel like I am an old aged kid who finds it hard to do things that normal people do easily (sometimes). Having said that, I feel that I cheer up easily when I believe I can change or I can do it.

I know that I am lucky and I feel grateful every day. However, I can't help sometimes hating myself for being so lazy. I also sometimes feel helpless or lost in negative thoughts for stopping to try or I even feel frustrated in some situations. I feel like I am an old aged kid who finds it hard to do things that normal people easily do (sometimes). Having said that, I can also easily cheer up when I believe I can change or I can do it.