the change when i talk to someone, i find my english isn't good enough for me to talk to somebody freely , it is a problem , i have learned english for nine years , it is a long time , actually , my english is still poor , many times , i want to find why , but i ended with a empty head ,this is not a occasional things , it baffle me so long time , now , graduation is around the corner , i find a job in education training institution ,i got this job as a teacher , this job is also that my parents wanted me to do , but now, something has changed without any signal. i come to doubt my dream , i am not a impulsive person, no matter how difficult it is

new finding before now, i thought i could say something unhappy things here to release myself ,i get rid of the thought now since i see so many people write some study material on this , i get a lot from reading that , this is an actual studying website, i am so lucky i am one of this ,

my own when i get my pen , so many things come up to mind , it is so hard to start to tidy it up because of the complex relationship between them i often decided my own decisions , No matter what other people say . i do what i want to do , i say what i love to say . Maybe you would say i was too stubborn to listen and care about other people's feelings , you are total wrong.i would speak some thing to someone face to face rather than whisper behind them . i would rather swallow the bitter silently than spread them to bother my friends even i knew that would be such a big challenge that i couldn't burden it by my alone , i summoned up courage to do that when i thought it would bring my friends smiles . For this , i never regret .

My Friends when i get my pen , so many things come up to mind , it is so hard to start to tidy it up because of the complex relationship between them i often decided my own decisions , No matter what other people say . i do what i want to do , i say what i love to say . Maybe you would say i was too stubborn to listen and care about other people's feelings , you are total wrong.i would speak some thing to someone face to face rather than whisper behind them . i would rather swallow the bitter silently than spread them to bother my friends even i knew that would be such a big challenge that i couldn't burden it by my alone , i summoned up courage to do that when i thought it would bring my friends smiles . For this , i never regret .

My Friends when i get my pen , so many things come up to mind , it is so hard to start to tidy it up because of the complex relationship between them i often decided my own decisions , No matter what other people say . i do what i want to do , i say what i love to say . Maybe you would say i was too stubborn to listen and care about other people's feelings , you are total wrong.i would speak some thing to someone face to face rather than whisper behind them . i would rather swallow the bitter silently than spread them to bother my friends even i knew that would be such a big challenge that i couldn't burden it by my alone , i summoned up courage to do that when i thought it would bring my friends smiles . For this , i never regret .

help me i am a senior college student , so i have to face the cruel reality. i have to find a job to support myself . it is known to all that it is hard to find one in today's fierce competition. i am going to worry my future , For a just graduate student . i have no experience which so many company value, the delivered resume were like the running water and never got replies . i felt so desperate . Do you have the same problems , who can tell me why the world have been changed so hard to understand . .

the mist today is the third day that i use italki , i am discouraged when i found that the friend in italki are usually off-line, it is hard for me to talk to them and know them , that is far away what i am thinking before , who can help me ?

A Blow My name is RanQiXue, From my name , it is easy to see i am a chinese , i am a junior college student now , it is a pity to have no girlfriend , before 11 ,11 , i found a likable girl and fell in love her immediately , i got a plan to invite her to company her to attend the special activity for Single Day and found proper time to tell her what i thought, so i send text to her to get the permission, unfortunately , she gave a pretext that she was busy for that night , i felt depressed , But i didn' t want to let go of her , so i sent her another text to ask her to come for me , But i faild, In order to leave her a good impression , i stopped sending text to her , i hoped it would be better tomorrow . 11, 12 was my friend's birthday, we went out to celebrate his birthday, but i wasn't happy , on that day , i drunk ,the following is on my bed till 7:30 pm, i picked my phone send her text ,i could get the clues from the replies that she was a pure girl , the following things was common for a man to purse the girl he love, i told her what my feeling was , and exposed my affection to her , at first , it was vague , with the development , she was bewildered , so she asked me for the purpose directly like this " what things on earth do you want to say to me ? if you don't tell me directly , let's talk it later , i was upset for this unpredictable message ,At last , i had no choice but say " i love you " to her even though i knew that was not proper time to say this ,because of the short time we shared together , so i had done that , but that wasn't my original plan ,My heart was just like lots of ants in my heart while i waited the information, No matter how it went , my phone ranged ,it reads " sorry , my school brother , i had got my BF,just in yesterday(11.11)" I lose myself in just one second , i was destroyed . OMG, what thing i had done to make it treated me like this , oho

A below My name is RanQiXue, From my name , it is easy to see i am a chinese , i am a junior college student now , it is a pity to have no girlfriend , before 11 ,11 , i found a likable girl and fell in love her immediately , i got a plan to invite her to company her to attend the special activity for Single Day and found proper time to tell her what i thought, so i send text to her to get the permission, unfortunately , she gave a pretext that she was busy for that night , i felt depressed , But i didn' t want to let go of her , so i sent her another text to ask her to come for me , But i faild, In order to leave her a good impression , i stopped sending text to her , i hoped it would be better tomorrow . 11, 12 was my friend's birthday, we went out to celebrate his birthday, but i wasn't happy , on that day , i drunk ,the following is on my bed till 7:30 pm, i picked my phone send her text ,i could get the clues from the replies that she was a pure girl , the following things was common for a man to purse the girl he love, i told her what my feeling was , and exposed my affection to her , at first , it was vague , with the development , she was bewildered , so she asked me for the purpose directly like this " what things on earth do you want to say to me ? if you don't tell me directly , let's talk it later , i was upset for this unpredictable message ,At last , i had no choice but say " i love you " to her even though i knew that was not proper time to say this ,because of the short time we shared together , so i had done that , but that wasn't my original plan ,My heart was just like lots of ants in my heart while i waited the information, No matter how it went , my phone ranged ,it reads " sorry , my school brother , i had got my BF,just in yesterday(11.11)" I lose myself in just one second , i was destroyed . OMG, what thing i had done to make it treated me like this , oho