The Gap Between My Father and I

This gap [is] not just the generation gap like other family [families] or other parents with {their} children. In my childhood, I hate[d] my father. He is [was] so serious that I can’t joking [couldn't joke] with him. He often be angry at just [Often, he'd get angry over] a little thing or word. And my father have [had] a bad temper, he [was] always drunk, I also hate the alcohol.[I hated his drinking.] so there are lots [There were lots of] quarrel[s] and fight[s] between my parents. He was a soldier, so he is [was] tall and strong but my mother is [was] short and thin. He is [was] very vain, the vain man [and] always believes [believed that everything] what he does [did was] is absolutely correct.

{And} then, my parents divorced when I was studying at [in] {a} junior middle school, and I'd spend time with my mom without my dad. {And} it [still] hurts me. I can’t forget this [my] pain. I don’t call him dad, daddy or father, [I] just said [say] what I want to said [say] to him in all of our talks. I used to wish he would drop dead.

But one day, I have a dream, in that dream, my father died.I can’t overcome this grief, I just cry [cried], and cried myself [after I awoke] awake from the [that] nightmare. At that time, I realized that I love him even though he [created a lot of suffering] makes me suffered a lot. He is my father, he loves me, just like my mother told me that he loves me. That is when my relationship with my father began to change. That is when I began to understand my father. He's very generous. He is worried {about that} [if] I would be injured at school. He, are [is] not good at expressing his feelings, {are} not good at say [saying "I love you."]  “love”, he feels that love is real action to do [He feels he shows his love through his actions]. He was [always] very busy for[in] his work,  and have [had] a lot [lots] of pressure.

And now, there is a [new] development in my family. My parents remarried. Of all the resentment, there is not a real hate, but lack of communication and understanding. [All the resentment, the hate, it was only a lack of communication and understanding.]

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